Another one bite the dust

Growing up I didnt have many girlfriends, my best friend was a guy and I didnt do girly shit. Now that I'm an adult it seems the same holds true. I'm marrying my best friend and I dont have many girlfriends. I had 2 close friends that were only close cause I've known them longer and now I only have one. I can say I'm a damn good person for putting up with drama for 3 yrs and biting my tongue about one night stands and alcohol induced black outs, but I'm really just an enabler. So my choice to quit enabling isnt a big step....unless you say its a step back. Whatever you call it I just dumped about 200lbs of baggage.

I'm a human incubator...

I almost feel alien like. I'm walking around, doing my every day thing, while this extra being is growing iside of me. Moving, "breathing", hiccuping ((which is way distracting)), even PEEING inside of me...its very weird. Why did God think this was the best way to produce another human? I guess I wont know that answer from some time but you can bet I WILL be asking when I get to heaven.

In other news we're getting married December 28th. I reserved the teeny tiny chapel the other day and promptly went into a panick attack LOL. Seriously, why is something so exciting so nerve wracking at the same time?! My mother is making all the arrangments. I planned on going to the chapel, saying vows and going home to take a nap. Why not? Cause my mother's eldest daughter is getting married so we'll have a limo, I'll walk down a red carpet into the chapel w/a gorgeous bouquet, resite my vows, take photos by the watrer fountain and then be wisked off to my reception at my brother's home. Where everyone will eat, drink and be merry. Its all very nice but still overwhelming. The bright ((and shinny side)) my ring will be here on Wednesday. I cant wait to put it on. I mean, yes its pretty, but the whole symbole of it and what it represents is way more important and makes me waaaaay more excited.