Another one bite the dust

Growing up I didnt have many girlfriends, my best friend was a guy and I didnt do girly shit. Now that I'm an adult it seems the same holds true. I'm marrying my best friend and I dont have many girlfriends. I had 2 close friends that were only close cause I've known them longer and now I only have one. I can say I'm a damn good person for putting up with drama for 3 yrs and biting my tongue about one night stands and alcohol induced black outs, but I'm really just an enabler. So my choice to quit enabling isnt a big step....unless you say its a step back. Whatever you call it I just dumped about 200lbs of baggage.

I'm a human incubator...

I almost feel alien like. I'm walking around, doing my every day thing, while this extra being is growing iside of me. Moving, "breathing", hiccuping ((which is way distracting)), even PEEING inside of me...its very weird. Why did God think this was the best way to produce another human? I guess I wont know that answer from some time but you can bet I WILL be asking when I get to heaven.

In other news we're getting married December 28th. I reserved the teeny tiny chapel the other day and promptly went into a panick attack LOL. Seriously, why is something so exciting so nerve wracking at the same time?! My mother is making all the arrangments. I planned on going to the chapel, saying vows and going home to take a nap. Why not? Cause my mother's eldest daughter is getting married so we'll have a limo, I'll walk down a red carpet into the chapel w/a gorgeous bouquet, resite my vows, take photos by the watrer fountain and then be wisked off to my reception at my brother's home. Where everyone will eat, drink and be merry. Its all very nice but still overwhelming. The bright ((and shinny side)) my ring will be here on Wednesday. I cant wait to put it on. I mean, yes its pretty, but the whole symbole of it and what it represents is way more important and makes me waaaaay more excited.

A run down of my weekend

The kick off...Thursday ((just thursday, geez!))

* Come home to pisstastic fiance

* laugh and ignore pisstastic fiance ((cause its his fault I'm pissed and because I'm pissed at him he's pissed at me.))

* Go to the store do a quick grab and go of everything I need

* Come home, warm oven to bake chicken

* Jump in the shower and wonder WHY no one is answering the front door

* Come out quickly dress so Monkey Face doesnt walk in on me naked

* Attempt to prep dinner when Moneky Face comes to me and shows me the bug that fell off her head....WAIT...WHAT?!?! Oh yes my friends a bug, wiggling and moving. Why was it on her head? Cause Monkey Face had head lice. Not some lil eggs to pick off and shampoo her head a GIANT INFESTATION!! I've never seen something so disgusting. Apprently her head isnt that sensative so she didnt itch when the things started to multiply. We, or should I say I ((after 2hrs)) removed 33 bugs from that childs head. I spent the rest of the night cleaning, spraying, washing everything all over her room and the couch.

Continued....Friday

* After attending a lecture with Clay went home and actually rested. Whooo!

Saturday...

* Enjoy our usual lazy Saturday morning in bed for about 5 mins

* Get out of bed at 830 am due to extreme hunger, not mine, Julian the fat cat's!

* Eat breakfast and feed child

* BEG her to clean her room

* Run to do errands at which time I discovered I had a $20 late fee at the library...great

* Come home completly wiped and spend afternoon on couch

Sunday....

* After tossing and turning all night try to get sleep in the empty bed Clay's departure for work left behind.

* Tossed and turned for about 2 hrs before waking, yet again, to extreme hunger, this time mine

* Feed cat, feed self, feed child

*Begin cleaning the "cat room" AKA laundry room...not fun. Tell Monkey Face to clean her room

* Start doing landry

* Remind Monkey Face that we dont want to clean all day, get to it. Vacuum living room

* Fold laundry while manuvering lard o' cat off the clean clothes...YELL at Monkey Face to get that @!)&#$ room clean!!

* Go into Monkey Face's room with a garbage bag and proceed to thru away anything that isnt moving.

* 4hrs after begining the cleaning mission FINALLY find time to sit down and rest only to recive a phone call from Mr Man requesting MEAT when he got home from work.

* Cook

* Shower

* DIE in my nice comfy bed and ignore the world

* Wake, semi rested after being attacked by Clay

* Finish cleaning kitchen

* Dress to meet up with Clay's folks

It was a crazy long weekend and I'm SO tired!

The only reason he's allowed to live....

Is because I blame my hostilities on hormones...and because Noah needs his daddy. Otherwise Clay's body would be thrown into a wood chipper and use as fertilizer. Since last Thursday he has managed to piss me off at least 4 times before I even got home. And I try to stay quiet in order to keep the peace but the anger vibes float off me and everyone is aware. So I sent him an IM to forewarn him...it didnt work and now I could give a rats ass about peace. Em effer is asking for a ware!

I am SO tired!

You'd think after the hellacious Sunday we had that I'd be ready to sleep for 40hrs but no, my body wont let me. Monkey face got attacked by a dog Sunday and therefore we spent 7 hrs at 2 different hospitals. The local hospital cleaned her up then shipped her over to Ft Worth's Cooks Childern's Hospital to be seen by a peds plastic surgen. She has a few bite marks on her chest and side but the big bite is on her arm, about 3" across and down to the muscle. Lucky it didnt puncture the muscle or rip any important parts so her arm is fully functional but very sore and bruised. She was so brave and so strong. I'm proud of her, I know any other child would have screamed and fought with those Dr's and nurses who kept poking and prodding at her. And she would have had all right too! That sucker was U-G-L-Y! But she squeezed the hell out of Clay and she toughed it out. My poor baby!

In other news Noah kicked daddy last night for poking at him. Clay's face lit up like you wouldnt believe. It was very cool....we were standing in the kitchen and I felt a BIG kick, so much so that it was a "WOA" moment. Clay came over and put his hand on my belly and nothing, so he started poking and thats when he got a good 3-4 kicks back. lol But of course before bed I'm sitting on the couch watching my DVR'd Grey's and Clay puts his head on my tummy. So I say "can you hear him?" (jokingly) he told me "no I'm waiting to see if he'll kick me in the head"...men can be so silly! So then when I was tucking Monkey Face into bed I laid down with her and she got to feel little kicks too. She loves her little brother already.

Baby is a BOY!!

Well, we went Wednesday to have the BIG ultra sound. And after poking, pushing and measuring we were able to see that baby is definitely 100% boy! It was a great experience to share with Clay and Adra. I'm glad they both were there. Adra was excited too, I could tell cause she wouldnt stop talking! lol She was asking questions about everything and everyone. She was even pretending to be an u/s tech while we were waiting for the Dr. By the way, I'm glad they were nice at that office and had gel warmer for my tummy. Any way, the Dr measure Noah growing right on scheduale, everything is growing and working properly.

The Dr asked Clay "what do you think the baby is?" And of course he said, "I hope its a boy"...Adra added her two cents and said "but it could be a girl". To which the Dr replied "well, dad's are usually right arent they?" and BOOM on the screen was lil boy parts. No tears were shed, we were excited and kept saying "I cant believe it IS a boy"...lol we gave each other a high 5! LOL Only us ;) We're very happy to have one of each, it makes them both equally special in their own uniqe ways. We're very blessed and thankful,

I'm counting the days

Today is Monday, thank goodness. Its not over yet but its alright. I'm counting the days until Wed and Thurs. I think I made Adra nervous the other day, I had her clean her room for grandma and I reminded her she'd be here in a few days. And she said "thanks mom, no pressure"....my smart alec 9yo.

What a busy weekend I had, friday night I was able to relax a lil. But Saturday, after sleeping in, I dropped books off at the library, returned the tux shirt that didnt fit Clay, went to the grocery store, cleaned and vaccumed the car and started laundry. THAN Sunday, for some un-Godly reason I still had energy and decided to get on my hands and knees to wash not only the cupboard fronts but the flippin base boards too. Inside and outside the cupboards, the oven and the fridge. I vaccumed the house and finished laundry. Can you tell my mother is coming to visit?! lol

Is it Friday yet?

Amanda goes today to find out the sex of the baby. My cousin Jess went yesterday and found out she's having a girl. I go next Wednesday...I cant wait! I feel like I blew up this morning. My stomach looks so much more pregnant than fat. YESTARDAY though, I felt like Willy (you know, the killer whale). We're planning on a date night Friday, which will be nice cause we havent done that since monkey face got back from FL. I'm trying to talk Clay into seeing Fire Proof. But I have a feeling we'll see Sex Drive instead because of timing restrictions with the kids program monkey face is going to. Oh well, I hope I can make it thru one more day of work than enjoy my Saturday morning routine of sleeping in!

Quiet weekend

I noticed this blog is becoming more and more baby centered. Which is understandable since this is the main focus of my life right now. Run down of my life this week: Amanda and I, my Labor Buddy, have been chatting a lot this week. She is a cool chick, hopefully after the babies are here we'll remain friends. I went to a Dr appt this week and got to hear the babies heart beat. Its a wonderful sound. And since Tuesday or Wednesday baby has been bouncing around all over the place. Its cool right now but I'm sure when its a pound or two I may feel differently lol. Because of this obvious movement I've been talking to it. Seems kinda weird right now but, whatever. Also, I only gained a pound over the last month, I'm happy about that. What do you think?

Dr Ahmad said I need to see yet ANOTHER specialist for my pregnancy. A Fetal Specialist. Hopefully my insurance will be set soon and I can make an appt. I went and bought Adra's Halloween costume and now I'm broke until Oct 31st, lovely. Oh well, mom is coming the 23rd, maybe she'll hook a sista up ;) lol. Clay just left for a jam session and Adra and are stuck at home again. Joy of joys! I just LOVE not having my own damn car. Oh well.

Happy Hump Day!

So today is another long, boring day. I'm so tired of not having work to do! Its not like it isnt pilling up though. No, its continuing to come, I just cant do anything about it because of other people dragging their feet. BTW, I hope you appreciate the lil picture because I had to looked thru 3 pages of porn to find one decent one. Any who. Adra has been in my office 3 times this week and Friday will make 4...I cant stand it. Unfortunatly it feels like she is in my space, I'm not ready to deal with her or Clay right after work, it takes my 15 minute car ride to prepare myself and when I dont get that I get cranky. This will NOT happen again.

I'm hoping to have a Dr appt tomorrow, if all goes well with the insurance, which I think it will. I'm hoping to see or hear the baby heart beat because I need that little bit of reasurance. I'm pretty sure I've been feeling Baby F movin around but I still want to hear the heart beat. Being that I'm high risk I may get an u/s but if not that's probably for best since Clay isnt coming. I'll be glad when its time to go home.

I am so bored!

This day is slinking by. Its only 2pm, good thing I'm leaving a lil early today. I was surfing Freecycle. I love Freecycle! So far I've scored a 25" Sony TV and some CD towers, but I plan on finding more stuff. Any who, I saw a post for a bassinet and emailed the lady, hopefully I can get it. If not I'd like to get this pack n play I saw on Graco...its cute

and the matching travel system is cute too.

I emailed mom a link to the pack n play, dropping hints on what I want ;) we're gonna pick up some little stuff this month and next and probably the following until we have everything we need. It would be nice to be close to people who could buy stuff for us but whatever lol. I'm just enjoying this time with Adra and Clay. Clay is really diggin this baby stuff, he's even watching baby shows with me! Its cute, he rubs and talks to my belly on the regular.

I plan on doing an arts project with Adra, I think it would really get her excited to make a blanket for her sibling. I think we'll even do 2 of em. We can make a gender neutral one now and if/when we find out the sex of the baby we'll make a specific one. Its very simple too, you just get the fleece fabric and knot it together. When I get the fabric I'll post a step by step and Pictures. I'll have to go this weekend to Wal*Mart and find out how much fleece costs.

So this friday, we're going to the TX state fair. Its HUGE, we've never been to a fair so large. I dont know how my hips will handle the walk around the grounds but it will be nice to spend the time with the fam. More pictures for that.

Ok 2nd tri ISNT so fun

Right before I got into second tri, about a week before, I started feeling better. I wasnt gagging from smells, I wasnt exhausted any more and my boobies were being nice and eased up on the pain and nipple protrusion. Yeah, I know, lets talk about nipples on the world wide web. Well I am cause its part of being pregnant along with gasy-ness, headaches and back aches . Maybe I should show this blog to my younger sister to scare her into keeping her legs crossed til marriage. LOL

Any who, I'll be starting....wait gotta add this: dont want no short short man....LOL its on the radio. OK, try again! I'll be 15 weeks monday and sadly the yuck has returned. I've felt sick everytime I've eaten in the last 2 days and I'm sooo tired! I really hope I'm not coming down with anything, although I'm pretty sure its just lovely hormones. And to think, just last week I was telling the myspace world how much I was enjoying 2nd tri... :sigh: hopefully this will pass soon.

Plus side to all this? I can feel my wee-one bouncing around in the evening. He/she is very active. And although I am certain I'm having a boy I'm still trying to be gender neutral, sometimes. I'm starting to get a bump, it'd probably be more noticeable if I wasnt chuncky already. lol But ya know, I'm ok with my body. It isnt the shape or size it was pre Adra, but its mine and I accept it. Clay and I had a discussion last night. Apperently he likes my thickness and doesnt want me to loose my hips, thighs or ass. Cool, I'm glad he likes em. After baby comes and I have my heart surgery I'm hoping to tone up a little. It would even be nice if I could run. But I'm pretty sure thickness is in my genes and Clay doesnt have to worry ;)

Happy birthday Aiden

My newphew was born Sunday morning, Sept. 14th at 830 am. He is adorbale....although still a little monkyish...check em out.

My bad

I've totally slacked on blogging. But it doesnt matter because no one reads! Any who lets see, whats been going on? I've had a few weird baby dreams, usually about delivering early. One of them Clay and mom we're arguing over which box the baby should go in. When I told Clay about the dream later he said "well you have to deliver the baby in something!" ha ha haaa, so silly. Then I finally had a dream on the sex of the baby. I'm convinced I'm having a boy.

We had a Dr say it might be better to terminate the pregnancy because of my heart issues. I went to a high risk OB and asked her opinion, she is still working on that. We got to see the baby on the u/s bouncing and wiggling around. My mother is convinced I should abort, she doesnt want to risk my life, but I'm feeling well so I plan on sticking it out.

In other news, I'm going to be an Auntie in the next 48 hrs or so. I cant wait to see my little nephew! My brother will be home with his fiancee all weekend so it'll be great for them. I'm very excited.

Thank God

Sometimes when I get bummed I pull out this blog that Clay created in November. It reminds me that all though we arent 'conventional' we're still blessed. Obviously God has a plan for us and he wasted no time getting it started! Read on and enjoy.....

Nov 24th 2007
Just this past year, numerous changes have taken place in my life. The first major change: I’m moving to Texas from Florida in January to go back to school to study music. I’m leaving my parents’ home with not much money, and I’m going for it. The second major change: I met a woman recently here in my home town, who consequently I want to spend the rest of my life with. Now you would think that these two changes might have a certain conflict of interest, but they don’t.I met her a few months back, probably in July or something like that, but we didn’t become friends until early September. At that point we gravitated towards each other and “clicked”, if you will. Since then we’ve fallen in love and we both stand firm in our decision to eventually get married.

How does this happen, might you ask? I’ll tell you. Now, if you don’t believe in God then this next part is not for you: God brought us together. That’s not to say that God personally orchestrates every little aspect and detail of my life, but to me, this one is pretty obvious. Naturally this doesn’t work for every couple, but we are that special case. If you ask, you will receive. And I have asked for this one, diligently.

So I thought it would be a problem, with me going to school and all, but it wasn’t. Her response was a decision that surprised me and everyone that has heard of it. She decided to move out to Texas with me. So we discussed, at length, the implications of this decision for myself, for her, and, for her daughter. We’ve both prayed seriously about it, and we both know that this is something from God.
This is where yours and everybody’s reactions start to pour in. I’ve received some positive responses to my situation, and I’m grateful for those. But many have had some kind of problem with it or another. It’s either “You’re crazy” or “You haven’t thought this through” or “She has a kid.” And no matter how many times or ways I go over it and explain it to people, they just never understand. Even Christians, who are supposed to live by faith, have run down the list of reasons why this can’t work. And I think I know why this is the case.

It’s our society. It is our culture and our core value system. Our values and our aspirations in this nation are materialistic, and selfish. If I had said that she was moving out to Texas for a job opportunity, every response I’m sure would’ve been congratulatory. But if she follows the man she loves because she has faith that God can make it work, she’s blinded or she’s stupid? Is this really how much value we place on love nowadays?

In our culture, there is such a prevailing attitude towards love. It’s the “try it before you buy it” method. With this type of approach, you have a ‘ninety day return policy’ on all items purchased. But doesn’t the bible say that true love endures all, suffers all, and seeks not after its own (1 Corinthians 13:4)? If this is true, then “try it before you buy it” can’t be true love. This probably has something to do with why divorce rates are so high in our country, especially within the Christian community.

Now I’m all for taking the time to get to know somebody before you make any life-changing decisions. But when you know, you just know. And if you put your trust in God as I have, then you truly have nothing to worry about. I’ll be damned if I pass up the opportunity to be with the woman that God has given me because I doubted what, before my eyes, is plain to see.

Off track again

Reality check....how can a full time student/part time worker & a full time worker support 2 children on less than $2.5k a month AND have a nice size wedding at the same time?? Truth...I have no clue. I honestly dont think it can be done. So this is why we arent doing the wedding in July. I dont know what we're going to do. I feel so bad sometimes, I got pregnant and this downward spiral is all I see. We cant have the wedding we were dreaming of, what ifs about school, careers and life in general keep popping up. And my hormones make me so emotional I want to cry about it all the time. I get down but I dont get to far down before I remember to put my trust in God and allow Him to burden the pain. All I can do is pray that everything will turn out the way its supposed to. I'm so worried I will screw up our lives and ruin his plans.

1st weird wedding dream

Last night I have this dream, I'm watching it like a movie, and I tell Clay to get ready for the wedding but he was too busy watching UFC and he wasn’t listening.
So I walk out to get the MOH (who happens to be an old friend who I haven’t seen in forever) to help me get dressed and we go to the flippin Texaco next to my apartment to get ready in the isle! lol She has on this UGLY yellow dress with a reddish orange sash, and I have on the dress I like but it has a black sash on it, apparently to hide the left over baby bump. She tied the sash to the side and I didnt like it so I took it off to adjust it but then it shrank and I couldnt put it back on.
I said screw it and went over to the Salvation Army shelter so I could walk down the aisle! I get there, and my son (who is supposed to only be 3-4 months old) is standing there in a lil tux, he's about the size of a 2yr old but he has that deep voice (you know like the lil guy who smokes cigars? lol) and he says 'dont worry ma, I'll walk you down the stinkin aisle.'
LMAO...just wait it gets better!! I walk into the SIDE door, so I have to excuse me, pardon me shuffle all the way through the BUMS to get to the aisle. Clay is standing there in khaki bermuda shirts, some dumb a$s black band tshirt and his freakin Converse and says 'baby, what are you doing coming thru the side?!' and I tell him 'dont worry just get your behind up there!' lol Than the alarm went off and I woke up. Crazy huh?!?!

Back on track

Well after the shocking news of last Thirsday, I got totally thrown off the wedding-planning track. So I decided to take the weekend off. I didnt look at any wedding related items, I spent time with my honey bun and we even look at baby names (side note: I REALLY want a boy, Noah Ishod is the name we picked for him). It was good for us to let this all sink in instead of being overwhelmed with baby AND wedding stuff.

So this morning I got back on TheKnot to look at planning stuff and try to get my juices flowing. Also I sent off a big email to Buck, my 'wedding planner' at the reception location. I asked him to start working on finding a DJ and a decorator and to work up a qoute for a cocktail hour and alcohol at the reception for at least 2 hrs. When I go to Florida next week, my mother and I will meet with him and probably put down the deposit for that date. Feels good to be planning again!

Oh. My. Gawd.

So....on the day of our one year countdown, we find out I'm pregnant. Oh. My.Gawd. Lets start from the begining...for about a month now Clay has been teasing me on and off claiming I'm pregnant. I told him to stop saying that word. LOL Neither one of us were ready for another kid right now, Adra is plenty. Insert: I miss my baby! Next: My last flow was a little wonky but thats understandable when you come off BC. So when I started getting the PMS symptoms I figured "good aunt flow is on her way"....but she didnt show up. I thought "ok maybe next week". But there was a voice in the back of my head that said "Sarah, you know it aint coming, you're pregnant" but denial kept me from believing it. THAN, this is the biggy, nausea showed up. I'm NEVER nauseous. I started to question it. Than I came home and told Clay (before we went to church that night) that I was going to the store to get a pregnancy test. The joking stopped than. He told me he didnt want a kid and I told him he should have kept his penis in his pants then. But we both kinda knew the test would be positive.

Fast forward to the next morning, Clay left for work at 5:30am, I got up around 7 to take a shower. I almost forgot about the test. But I went to get it, started the shower and brushed my teeth ( I think lol). I'm standing there, as naked as the day God made me (sorry for the visiual) FREAKING OUT! lol I'm rubbing my face, ohmygodohmygodohmygod, My hands are going thru my hair...and I'm thinking 'that test worked too quick, maybe its wrong'. So I went in the shower, still freaking out. And when I get out, the test is still there, looking at me, all positive and crap. I think it would laugh if it could have. I went on to work, taking the evidence with me, and tried my damndest not to tell any one. I really hoped the test was wrong but I knew it wasnt. I kept looking at it through out the day lol, yes I did one of those. And than Sharon called and I blurted it out. I couldnt keep it to myself. So after an emergency conference with Mary and Sharon I kinda calmed down and decided I'd go take a blood test at Planned Parenthood to confirm it.

I had text Clay earlier that day to ask him to come get me after work and when he showed up he already knew why. I told him I was going to take the test and he said he'd come along. That he was kinda excited. BOY did that lift a load off my shoulders. I really expected a different reaction. We went and the doc had me do a pee test before she poked me. She came in and said 'you are DEFINETLY pregnant'. No need for a blood test, the symptoms, and 2 tests were all I needed. We walked out and he asked 'so what did they say?' and I showed him the paper it said 'Report of Pregnancy'. We both lost it! lol I went nuts and he got excited! lol I kept cursing and saying 'I'M PREGNANT! I'M PREGNANT!' He told me to calm down and I did after I got my chocolate frosty. ^_^

So now we are getting excited for our new addition. We're still planning on keeping the wedding the same date. And we havent told our families yet. I plan to in 2 weeks when I go home for a few days. But he wont for a while. This is going to be an exciting year.

From wedding bee

Wordle, very fun...

1 year and 3 days

I have been looking at the ticker since I created that but for some reason this morning was different. It made my stomach flip, in a good way. You know like when you ride over the railroad tracks and you get that funny feeling? I know you know what I'm talking about.
Wow I cant believe that in just a number of days I'm going to be Mrs F. I'm excited. We opened our first joint account. I know its trivial but its still kinda major to me.

With that said...I have a year and three months to try and get this stuff together! I thought I had a caterer but now someone recommended this person and another person recommended that person and these people seem like more of a fit. And WHY is it when I email my vendors they take forever to respond? Lordy thats annoying. I think they should at least have an auto reply to say 'hey I got the message give me a day or 2'...any who I still havent put a deposit on anything but I'm fairly certian we'll get the church, reception location and photog. At least now that we have that account I know how much money I have to work with.

First the headache now the upset stomach...

To much stuff going on! I found a photographer, Jessica Leigh. I found a jack of all trades caterer All 4 One Events: food, drink, DJ and decor. I'm going to reserve the Berlinsky House for the reception and I'm almost certain I'll get the church if I can get thru the red tape of the premarital counseling. We have to have it to get married there, but its kinda hard to do when you're 1,000 miles away. But as soon as I can put deposits down on everything I'll feel better. My next worry will be paying for a honeymoon. FI is dead set on that and with the wedding already costing $5K (not including any rings or attire or transportation) idk how we'll do that. Like I said...I have an upset stomach!

I'm getting a headache already!

Alright so the 4th of July was the day of our official engagement. I feel like thats the same day the starting gun went off! I have a lil over a year but all these ideas are floating around in my head. I have ideas of how I want my dress to look but because my mother still isnt here I havent gone dress shopping. She lives in FL, we live in TX. My daughter went over there for a mini vacation in June and still isnt back so I miss her terribly! Mom was supposed to come back yesterday with my baby and since I spoke with her last night she didnt seem to be hoofin it any time soon.

Than I'm tetering on the reception location. I found a place I fell in love with but FI is telling me to hold off until he speaks with his parents. Apprently they (may) have a timeshare and (may) be able to get us a reception location. We'll see how that works.

Than I decided I'd get some figures from local vendors to see how much stuff usually costs. As far as I'm aware, FI and I are the only ones paying for anything. My mother says she'd like to help, and plans to do so (when, idk) but she isnt working. How is she going to do that? And FI's folks...dont even get me started! He spoke with his mother on Sunday and told her about our engagement, she wasnt exactly thrilled and FIL hasnt even called us to back.

THAN, my mother calls me last night to tell me how selfish I am to want to have my wedding on a Friday. How are people going to attend? Come on now, Its not like we are inviting our old middle school PE teachers who we havent seen in numerous years. We are inviting close friends and family. If close friends and family cant take off ONE Friday over the summer to attend our wedding than something is seriously wrong!

Where's the Tylenol?!

Its official

So since about a month after we started dating we have been takling about getting married. And since last month we actually started planning the wedding. But it wasnt till last night that he actually got down on one knee and asked me to marry him.
We went out to a wonderful Japanese resturant last night. Beautiful place. We had some great plum wine. Than went to the wine bar and got a nice cigar to enjoy while watching fireworks. We drove out to watch fireworks and I had no clue. Its funny how we've been talking about it but I was still surprised when he asked. YAY US! lol

The story of us

I know so many people love telling their story over and over...and I'm no exception! lol Every good story starts with something that cathes the readers attention, but I cant say we had that. It was a very normal, kinda boring beggining.

I formaly met Clay at church, he showed up with buddies of my brother. I knew the buddies through my brother so I went over and said 'hey'. They introduced me to Clay and I remembered him from HS. My brother and his friends are younger than me, so I didnt know them in HS but I knew of them. I had mentioned to Clay, 'thats right, you're the one who went from an afro to shaving your head, and no one could believe it!' We met up again at another church event one night. Every friday night my church had this thing called Epic for the 20-somethings (18-33, how thats 20-something idk). Clay was there with the same buddies and I was there with a girlfriend of mine so of course I didnt pay the young ones any attention (they are 3-4yrs younger than I am). But eventually the group of us that met up at church every Friday dwindled down to Clay and I (and one more friend who bounced all over the place).So we started sitting together and talking after church, than that talking turned into hanging out. I thought "great I have a new, really cool friend to hang out with". It took me 2 months to realize he wasnt just hanging out with me for the fun of it. lol I was a little slow
But as soon as I realized this wonderful man liked ME I was so excited. My friends at work nicknamed me Tinkerbell (we lived in FL at the time, close to Disney. And most of us have a love/hate relation w/"the mouse") because we were so mushy and sweet that it was sickening lol
We started dating in the begining of Sept, we had lunch dates every week and we went to the movies or out to eat often. We really became glued at the hip within that month. I couldnt believe how lucky I was to find someone who could possibly be "The One". And I've learned now that he felt like he was dreaming. He tells me now that he used to worry it was all a dream and he'd wake up and I wouldnt be there.
So just as we're slipping into the honeymoon phase of a new relation, he tells me he is going to Texas to check out a university he is interested in attending. At first I didnt think anything of it, people check out schools all the time, it doesnt mean that school is the right fit. But than he went over to visit, and I have to admit, I was a little bummed. Why did I find this guy just in time to loose him to another state? But I didnt let him know I felt that way, I called and text and encouraged him to do his best at the audition (for music college). And when he came back he told me how important that was to him. It helped him a lot and he was thankful to be falling for someone so wonderful.
A few weeks later, the begining of Oct, my cousin passed away. We knew she was diagnosed w/lung cancer but we werent sure what was going to happen. We were hopful that with her being so young (41) she'd be able to fight it. But she didnt. And since I am the rock of my family, I made sure to help mother make preperations to attend the funeral (in PA). I comforted my sister and daughter and tried to comfort my mother. But it got late (about 1230am) and I was tired and upset and everyone was going to sleep. I called Clay and he came over and he became MY comfort, he let me cry on his chest (I'm to short to reach his shoulder lol) and talked to me for hours. He helped me a lot that night. And when I went to PA to attend the funeral we were on the phone or texting the whole time, which helped me not be miserable. One night when we were on the phone (I remember everything about that night) I was telling him how at church everyone knows me as Adra's mom, they dont know my name. And he said 'maybe one day you'll be known as Clay's wife'. If I werent on the phone I would have screamed like a teenager, I was so excited! After hanging up the phone I ran in and told my mother, my aunt and my grandmother. My grandmother told me 'it doesnt matter if you've known him 4months or 4yrs if you know than you just know.'
When I came back from PA we: myself, my 8yo daughter and Clay, went out to dinner. It was late and my daughter was over excited so she got a headache and fell asleep at the table! Poor thing. While she was sleeping and we were trying to quietly eat dinner Clay told me he fell for me and was looking forward to spending a looooong time with me, if I got what he was saying (how cute, he stammers something terrible when he is nervous so I let it go at that cause he may have passed out if I prssed for anything more ) But how were we going to make it work if he was moving to Texas? I told him, if he'd have me, I was going to come along. So now ,10 months later, he, me and my mini me are living in Texas as one happy little family....life has been interesting. lol but we